EnRaGeD!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Godamnit!! WTF? At the moment I am extremely furious. I can't even begin to describe the colors that I am seeing in my fucking mind. Honesty has taken a flight outer space with no intentions of returning, as have all others aspects of morality. Virtues? Morals? Principles? No one has a fuckin clue. I'm soooooooo SICK of this shit I could scream until my fuckin eyeballs pop out. I wanna scream every obscenity known to man at you and I wanna torture your stupid ass for lying to me. DO NOT insult my intelligence by feeding me bullshit. Save it. Put it in a box. Bury it under a pile of horse shit and while you're at it dig yourself a hole. FUCK YOU in every language known to man!!!!!!!!!

Es una nino!!

Translation: It's a boy! Yippie. Hooray. Ok ok so I'm not exactly what you call enthused but I am happy. Honestly I'm over it! My heart melted when I saw the little stinker movin around in my belly. Playin with his feet and all. Ha ha, ultrasounds are the best. Geesh everyone around me seems to be havin boys. Goshdarnit, where are the girls?? I REALLY wanted a little girl so I could do all the frilly, prissy stuff. Yep, I'm a girly girl. Maybe she's in my future (but not my near future). Ya never know ;) Anywho, I think of it like this--my baby boy can be a mama's boy and he'll love me forever. Always protective of his lovely mommy. Awwwww. I just had to say it. Now his father on the other hand will be sure that his boy is involved in sports and various other "manly" activities. Yeah it's crucial to his development but he can't forget about the mama. No, not the mama. Shon seems to have this silly notion that I will be a jealousy-crazed, possessive mother. Lol, me?? Little old me? He thought it was funny to say that my son would be goin on his first date and I would desperately say "DJ where do you think you're going?? You can't go on a date with this girl. I'm your mother!!! I'm the only girlfriend you'll ever have!!!!!!!" Very funny. I wouldn't dare do anything like that *wink wink*. Look out little one! :)

I'm NUMB!

Not Linkin Park numb but numb because this baby is literally getting on my nerves! Seriously, the little one has got to be laying on a nerve because all 5 of the toes on my right foot are NUMB. It feels like somebody shot me up with Novacaine in my freakin toes. I am afraid, lol. I awoke from my peaceful sleep last night as a result of another weird and scary dream and then because my toes were completely numb and tingling. Uggggghhhhh! I tried lying there for a while but I was experiencing bouts of paranoia so I decided to wake Shon up (my significant other) and boy was he rattled. THE Grouchmeister himself was grumbling incoherent things while half asleep while I'm pouting and pleading with him to rub my toes and my belly, LMAO! I get tickled everytime I think about it and he had a flashback at lunch today. He clearly told me NOT TO WAKE HIM UP TONIGHT about numb toes. Loser. Well I'm experiencing a slight headache on the left side of my brain and it's sooooo annoying. It's interrupting my blogging. This kid I tell ya, not even here and already torturing me. Gotta talk to ya later alligator.

I've got a secret....Being pregnant is driving me bananas!!

I have THE weirdest dreams. The other night I dreamt of cupcakes and Jill Scott (lmao) and then I was rudely awakened by my oh so persistent bladder. Ummm I swear peeing every 15 minutes is the most annoying thing in the world!!! I am an on-the-go type of chick, so when I'm out and about I don't feel like stopping to pee every 5 seconds and I definitely hate getting out of my WARM BED to pee! Arrrggghhh! Oh and I can't forget the second most annoying thing, people who know I'm pregnant wanting to rub my stomach or people thinking that I've gained a little weight and I have a nasty little gut. Of course it's the most pleasant thing in the world to hear people say, "Oh Alawna! What is all that? (referring to my little pudge) You gotta do something about that." Thanks alot guys! Yeah yeah I know that most people are used to my svelte and sexy appearance but geez do you really think I'd let myself go like that??? Give me more credit than that. I'm only 4 months right now so I'm not exactly giving off a totally pregnant look. I'm still small so my belly just looks like a pudge. I'm ready to get over this hump so people won't keep thinkin I'm a fat ass! Let's not forget about those lovely people that I shall not name (ahem Jen, lmao) that want to rub my stomach and say "awwww" all the time. Excuse me while I vomit from all the disgusting sappiness that has been bestowed upon me.

The time has come and I have been contemplating buying maternity clothes (horror music) lol, I'm only joking. I have seen some cute stuff but I gotta keep lookin cuz I gotta keep it stylish, veerrrrryy important. Don't wanna be that pregnant chick who just doesn't care. Walking around lookin like whodunit and whatfor. Nope just not me. I'd rather be the pregnant chic mom as I have always been chic :) Sooo I shall begin my quest for these awfully stylish "fat girl" clothes, ha ha.

In the meantime, I shall consume my time with eating (yum) but not overeating, watching baby shows, exercising (whoo-hoo), traveling, and just simply having fun! Next month I find out the baby's sex. Yay! Alright guyz. I'm gone.

I forgot how to breathe for a second..

I have been incredibly busy for the past month of my life! Numerous things ranging from craploads of homework given out by my summer school teachers to road trips (yay!). I am a hormonal sleep-deprived individual. I mean I'm liable to go into a zombie-like state at any moment now. I need to sleep for like a week straight and maybe I can re-enter society fuctioning as a normal individual, lol.

Okay as my friends know very well there is always SOMETHING going on in my life. I honestly get the feeling that I'm a secret celebrity, lol. Anywho, this past weekend me and my sorority sisters went to Atlanta for their annual Greek Picnic and we had a blast! I fell in love with Atlanta the very first time I visited which was last year Labor Day weekend and this visit was even more superb. I tell ya, we were on the go nonstop. I can count the hours of sleep we had over a 3 day period on both of my hands (terrible). We went out every single night staying up until 6 in the morning, we went to Waffle House looking like sluts that had stayed out all night (which we did lol) and we went SHOOOPPPPINGG!! But I must recount the events of our first night out. I have never seen men so eager to talk to and awestruck by a group of women. I mean, we are GORGEOUS, but geez guys control yourself. From the moment we walked through the door eyes were glued on us and people were coming up to us left and right. One weirdo even followed us around the club, lol. It was crazy!! I must say that we got star treatment the duration of the trip. It was wonderful. I'm gonna post some pics up from the trip so you guys can experience our fabulosity (borrowed that from Kimora ;-).

Hmmm so finally I've completed the first session of summer school (I'm jumping up and down and flailing my arms all over the place) and I couldn't be happier but some very smart person decided that we didn't need a break in between sessions so instead of having a week or so for vacation I go back to school on MONDAY!!! Whhhhhhhhhyyyyyyyy??? I could decide not to go but something tells me to just go ahead and stop thinkin about it. But the good thing about this summer is that I have been going on many road trips which has been fun. I'm goin to New Orleans again this weekend and hopefully I'll be able to go to New York or Miami before the end of the summer. We shall see. K guys I'm gettin sleepy so I think I'm gonna take a little nap before i start my evening activities. Later.

Thinking....

My thoughts are running amok so I have to spill my guts. I have been pondering this question of whether there is a such thing as being happy. People are always saying (including myself) that they are happy, but are they really?? Are they just saying that to pacify themselves--to convince themselves that they've got something good?? It sounds crazy but seriously, happiness is sporadic. It comes and goes. And I hear of people trying to achieve this goal of "the good life" in which happiness is the main component--in other words, the pursuit of happiness. You cannot achieve happiness because what you're trying to achieve is what I call "infinite happiness", which is nonexistent in this world. How can you attain happiness when nothing but bad surrounds you? This screwed up world and all the screwed up people in it make it damn near impossible to be happy. And this is why I have decided to get closer to the only thing that could eventually give me true happiness--God. It's like everyone is looking to the wrong things in life to make them happy. Whatever it is, forget about it cause I can guarantee you that whatever "things" you may think are it, are not. Things and imperfect people can make you happy for a while but it doesn't measure up to the peace that God can give you. Have some faith people!

Ok....now I'm done spilling my guts and I need to smile so let me

Ahem!! Is anyone out there???

It is I. I am back once again after a very long disappearance. Welllll.....a crapload of things have happened to me since I've been gone. Trust me, you'll never believe how my life has changed in just a couple of months. People have gone. People have come. A new life has been formed. I have moved to Never Never land (and no I am not referring to Micheal Jackson's weirdo ranch). And you won't believe it but I'm in summer school, as much as I have complained about being out of school!! Ugh! A disturbing number of my exes have weirdly been trying to pursue me. Umm yeah... Dang-it, I honestly just think someone switched lives with me and failed to inform me of this change. Can I have my life back? Lol, but seriously change is good and I'm strangely happy with all of this. Hell, who am I fooling? My hormones have taken over my brain and they cause me to do and say very strange things. I'm a nutcase.

But hey, let's put all personal follies aside and discuss something like YouTube. Yeah that's fun! Ok I am just a tad bit concerned about our youth today. WTF is goin on with these kids??? My friends forwarded me some video footage of a 7 year old boy who stole his grandmother's car and DROVE it and not only drove it but hit 4 cars. Then when reporters asked this kid why he did what he did, he responded that "he wanted to do hoodrat things with his friends". What 7 year old says things like that?! OMG and why did the little kid have to be black?? *smh* Youth today...they REALLY need help. And I'm still puzzled as to why his darn grandmother didn't whip his little behind. She had the nerve to say she "just wanted to whip his behind but she didn't wanna go to jail for whipping him on camera". You are his legal guardian so who the hell ever said you couldn't whip your child out in public?? I mean I'm not sayin abuse the boy but I kinda think this little incident deserves some physical punishment along with some mental help. Honestly I think the darn grandma was scared of him because I found another video of him physically attacking her in Wal-Mart and she told the reporters that she was just standing there like an idiot lettin his little bad a$$ hit on her!!! Lord! I don't even wanna talk about them anymore. They are seriously makin me angry. This is a darn mockery. I posted the first video. You can watch if you like.

Tug-a-Lug

Ah ha! You though I was gonna leave you without a funny for today. Didn't ya? Well I have something for you and I must warn you that this one might catch you off guard and you may laugh yourself into tears. But hey I really love this guy! Lol!

Recap of Barack Obama/Russell Simmons shindig

Yesterday I attended the assembly for Barack Obama at my college and it was quite interesting. Aside from the fact that there was a neverending line to the location of his appearance and that we waited until forever for Barack to actually make his appearance, it was cool to be a part of history. Ok so yay for Barack BUT..........I have to comment on something about Mr. Russell Simmons. My friends and I are standing on the plaza at school awaiting his arrival, and he comes out with his two hats on. Wait...why does he have two hats on??? Wait...the hat on top is a Jackson State hat and who knows what type of hat was on the bottom. Ok so maybe we were going a little bit far with this but it's something to think about, we concluded that he thought our Jackson State hat wasn't worthy of touching his head. Lmao! (had to laugh for a second) I mean come on, just as easy as Mr. Simmons put that first hat on he could have taken it off and put our hat on. Come on! Show a little sincerity. I mean we all know how crazy ya boy is. We've all watched Run's House, lol. AND I discovered yesterday while searching for an image of Mr. Simmons that he and Barack rubbed each other the wrong way at one time (check this link out for further details http://www.openentrance.com/2007/05/09/russell-simmons-calls-barack-obama-a-mouse/). But hey glad to see that he was supporting him yesterday even if he didn't let our hat touch his little bald head, lol. One big happy family :)

Wellllll in more current news, I've finished my last midterm today and I am ELATED! Have a great feeling about the rest of this week although we still have class (groan) and I'm super excited about Spring Break which starts on Saturday for me! Houston get ready for my grand reappearance! Today is a new start as is everyday and I shall make it my goal to end it well and be ready for what the next day brings. Learn from your mistakes. Live good. Love yourself.

22's!!!!

As always, I must leave you guys with something humorous just to brighten up your day and lighten your mood. This was a pretty entertaining clip from America's Next Top Model. Check it out.

Barack the Vote

Sooooo Barack Obama is making his grand appearance at my dear college home, Jackson State University. Whoo hoo!! Everyone's all excited and our school is bein true to its blackness and cleanin stuff up all around the proximity of the campus to prepare for this big visit, lol. You know, going the extra mile. But I guess that's to be expected. Today is gonna be pretty freakin awesome. It's a nice day outside, hip-hop fashion mogul Russell Simmons will be hosting a rally at 12 o'clock on campus, Barack will be here this evening. What a day, what a day.

Meanwhile I'm sitting in the library at school trying to figure out what I'm gonna conjure up to give my instructor at 1 p.m. I hate these darn teachers who give freakin busy work. Ugh! As a matter of fact, I'm beginning to wonder why we even have class today. With all that's going on on campus today, class should be cancelled. (well that's my opinion) Really, we shouldn't even be in school this week. Midterm week was last week and Spring Break is next week so we're having class this week for what reason again??? I think they got the order of events all screwed up. Ah well, I guess I have to deal with it huh? Good day you guys.

Stealing Palm Trees!!

Ok, here's the funny for the day. Lmao!! This guy is super funny to me. Stealing trees?? What has the world come to? ROTFL!!

They stole my Palm Trees!!!

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Wacky Weather

What in Sam Hill is up with the weather in Jackson, MS?! Ok, I know we have issues with mankind having screwed up the ozone layer with their brilliant creations but I mean this weather has really made my butt itch (hey it's only a figure of speech). Anyway let's take a look at the weather this week. Starting with Monday the temp was 77 freakin degrees. Right around the corner from 80, k? Tuesday the temp drops down to 52 degress!! The next 2 days are like in the sixties, that's fine. But today the high is expected to be freakin 46 degrees with a low of 28 and I wake up to a snow advisory warning!!!!! This is Mississippi and it's March for God's sake! Why the heck do we have a warning for snow? Darnit I had plans of going out tonight. What the heck am I gonna wear? A turtleneck and jeans? That's not sexy, but if I don't dress warm I'll revert back to the days in New Orleans when me and my best friend used to frequent the clubs literally half-naked in the freezing cold. Eh, I don't think it's worth me takin the freeze for these clubs. These losers don't deserve to see my sexy body anyhow. (chuckle)

You're standing on my neck!!

La la la la la....la la la la la. Hey remember that? Daria? MTV? I'm referring to the title of this post....eh ok. You either get it or you don't. That show was pretty darn funny. Daria was so dry and full of sarcasm. Hilarious.

Ok so I'm at the gas station and this super fat nasty looking guy is eyeing me while I'm in line and I'm like totally grossed out. I get to the pump and he's like following me. Ugh!! He stops at his car and I'm thinking in my head please don't talk to me..please don't talk to me and there he goes "excuse me miss lady, but do you know where lucky is?" Damnit! WTF are you talkin about??? Who the f&%k is Lucky? So I regress. I say "what did you say?" He idiotically repeats himself and I'm apalled by his cheesy incredibly lame pickup line. Then he has the nerve to add insult to injury and explain to me what he has said. He says, "Do you have someone lucky in your life?" OH MY GOD! No you did not. I just had to laugh and continue on with pumping my gas. Why is he still trying?? He proceeds over to the vehicle I'm pumping gas in and asks me can he be the lucky person in my life. Would you give up please? I give him a raised eyebrow and apologetically tell him that he doesn't wanna talk to me. He of course asks why and I tell him he just doesn't. Now go away!! Then he asks what's wrong with me. I was temtped to tell him I had AIDS or something but I thought that would be too funny and just a little disturbing, so instead I told him I was gay and finally he went away. *trumpets of victory* No more ugly faces.

This girl who shall remain nameless is a freakin loser!! She makes me wanna vomit most of the time I'm around her. So I'm gonna leave her a nice little message:

Oh and just to let you know. I hate feet so this picture emphasizes how strong my nauseous feelings are for her. Ugh! Stupid hoe. Lmao! (I really do like her SOMETIMES but just not right now)

So Disturbed

Late last night I was watching Nancy Grace talk about the freshman sorority member Lauren A. Burk from Auburn University who was killed recently. I'm not an avid news watcher but I was suffering from my usual insomnia and happened to turn to it. Lauren was shot and later died at the hospital and what's even worse is the idiot who killed her had the nerve to set her car on fire. Destroying evidence maybe? What could this girl have possibly done to deserve this?Or better yet, why would someone do this to her? I mean this is completely insane and is still an unsolved mystery at the moment. Gosh I really wanna know the details on this one. But honestly while I was watching this story, I was thinking of a girl that was killed the latter part of last year at my school. A girl named Latasha Norman was kidnapped off of our school campus (actually very close to the building I take most of my classes in) and stabbed to death by her boyfriend. She was missing for days and authorities finally found her body on the side of this deserted street among beer bottles and other trash. I mean things like this are ridiculous. The world has gone mad! But on top of all of these things, I was shaken by the death of a former high school classmate. I was informed today that she was recently shot in the head and burned. It overwhelms me with emotion and I wanna just cry my eyes out because this is close to home. These were bright young women that had futures ahead of them and some SELFISH, AWFUL, SICK & DISTURBED individuals took their lives. What gives any human in this world the right to take a life? It seriously angers me. I feel so awful for these girls because they didn't have a chance to live their lives and then I think.....maybe they're better off than me. At least they don't have to endure the troubles of this sick world. And yes it is SICK.

Candy Mountain! Candy Mountain!

Had to leave you guys with something I find quite hilarious. It was shown to me by a friend and it's stupid (yes I know) but if you have a slightly retarded sense of humor you'll find it funny. LMAO! This one's a killer!

Allow me to first introduce myself..

Goshdarnit where do I begin?? The name that I choose to tell you is Ari B. I'm a college student at Jackson State University. My major is psychology. I'm 22. I'm single. Ummm......have you fallen asleep yet cuz I think I would have by now. Let me not waste your precious time and bore you. That would be a horrible injustice, lol. Anyway how about I tell you why I've chosen to write a lovely blog in the first place. Weeelllll I like to tell others about my stupid and incredibly weird experiences, plus my best friend on here is e. jay and she has a lovely blog which inspired me to write one also. Yay!! Okay I have a stomachache that is getting increasingly worse by the second AND I have a freakin midterm today at 3 o'clock AND I still haven't found the strength to remove myself from bed AND I'm naked while writing this blog. Sorry guys I am sometimes brutally honest. It may not seem like much right now but please believe there's more to come. This blog is to be continued...RIGHT NOW I must get showered, dressed, and do something like studying for my midterm. Adios.